I have been doing a lot of thinking lately so much in fact that I have been losing sleep. So now I have decided that I am no longer going to continually think and worry about things that I have absolutely no control over. I like to think that I am fairly intelligent but obviously I am not or I would have realized this a long time ago. I have hopes and dreams that I would like to have happen but they are just not supposed to happen right now. So there is no need in constantly pondering on it. God knows the desires of my heart and he will give those things in his timing as long as they are in accordance with his will. My other thought is not really a thought but a conviction. I have recently started trying to memorize scripture and it is really amazing what it can do. I have realized how important the word of God is. I don't mean that I did not think that it was important before I know understand even greater than before. The word of God is our spritual food but yet I miss a lot of meals. I don't ever do that with physical food. So as the psalmist said in 119:11 " I have hidden your words in my heart so that I might not sin against you." It is God's word along with the Holy Spirit that helps to not sin, but it says that he hid it in his heart. To me that says he knew he did not just know where to find it in a book he knew it in his heart. He had memorized it not so he could just qoute it but so he could live it because it had become a part of him. God has really stirred up a hunger inside of me for his word. I am kind of hoping that it will get my mind off a lot of these other things.