Well I do not really know where to begin with my rambling, but I can't think of a better subject than girls. None in particular really unless you count the ten or so girls that some people in my church want to fix me up with. I just can't seem to grasp what exactly is going on in these peoples heads. I am beginning to think they believe I am lonely and have no hope of finding a girl on my own. This area of my life is one that I have really had some personal struggles with in recent months. After some advice from a friend I finally truly handed this area over to God and have not really worried about it. But these people keep insisting on fixing me up. It was all fine and dandy and kind of humorous at first , but now all I think about is trying to find someone. It is kind of hard not thinking about it when that is all the ladies in my church keep talking about. They mean well but I really wish they would back off. I know that it is a natural thing for me to want a relationship, to want someone that I can share my dreams and desires, someone who would love me for me, and someone that I can just fall in love with without any fear(I have been thinking about this just a little). I know that it will happen and that I just have to wait for God's timing but it is just so hard sometimes. I thought that moving somewhere that I don't know a lot of people would help but it really just makes me more lonely. I just gotta trust God. I have obviously been thinking about this a while and don't I typed this to make anyone feel sorry for me or anything like that I just needed to get it off my chest and just ramble. I feel better now.
My weekend...
Has been pretty good. It has been the most eventful weekend in like over a month. So friday night I had plans to go swing dancing with my friend Ashley and her boyfriend Jon. Well on my way over to pensacola Ashley called me to tell me that they were at the emergency room with one of Jon's friends. Well I decided that sitting at the emergency room with friends is better than sitting at home by myself. So we sat in the emergency room for like two hours and watched The Whole Nine Yards and ate some KFC. Well after that we did not go dancing which was ok because I was just a little nervous about the whole thing but we might try to go again at the end of the month so I will get another shot at it. We ended up going to one of Jon's friend's(Alicia) houses and hung out. I met some interesting people there. Like this one guy named Ringl who has a website with pics of him being kissed on the cheeks by all these girls. There also this girl named Alicia who was pretty cool and kinda scared me by flipping backwards over her couch to talk to me. I guess you could say she was head over heels for me. HAHAHAHAHA. Sorry. It was rather interesting though because she has a brother named Bubba and I have a sister named Alicia. We thought that it was interesting anyway. I did not really know how stir crazy I had become until I realized that I was having a good time on a night that began at the emergency room. I think that I will save what I did saturday night for another time, but lets just say it involved Monopoly. It was intense but more on that later.